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May 12 Exam madness!Ah ha! Exams. i hate exams. Especially internal school exams. Lols, rotten at home for the whole week. Try to relax myself by going out. Somehow it works! Yeshh!! I'm waiting for GSS.. Haha You know You love me! April 21 TuesdayHAPPY BIRTHDAY
SHARON & ELAINE!
I'm not in a good shape these days. It happens that I'm emotional all the time. Got Silver (77m) for SYF. I'm kinda of happy, 77 lei! But kinda sad. Not gold! Finally SYF over and I can step down. However, I have nothing to do now. ZZZ. It was mum's birthday yesterday. I'm a bad daughter, I didn't make her happy but sad instead as I spent $70 to polish my tooth today.
It is not my week. I'm always so sad in school. And I don't wanna go to school. Seeing all my teachers and peers make me bloodly stress. I don't wish to talk as I want prevent myself from offending anyone. And please, can you don't talk so loud to me? I'm afraid of you. It seems like you only treat me like a classmate when you are happy. They rest of the time you're shouting and opposing me. I really hate this. It makes me want to kill myself because I feel that it's my fault to make you offended!!! I really hate school. Firstly because of all this nonsense, people shouting at me, making me feel so guilty. Secondly, the teachers pushing us like as if we are robots. And thirdly, everyone is so emotional, I don't even know when they will talk to me nicely and when they will suddenly scream at me and tell me to shut up. Enough... I can't possibly cope with ALL at once. I once felt so depressed that I almost want to to knock my head on the wall and kill myself. I've been trying very hard to control myself. And now, I CAN NO LONGER TAKE IT. There is a high probability that I may disappear from school anytime. I don't want to see myself in such difficult position anymore.
  April 14 DEADHaha, I restored my old habit - Sleeping in class like nobody is watching. HAHA!!! My Chemistry SPA was a piece of nonsense. SHIT!! I totally don't know what the hell they are asking for. But whatever la, if's just a small percentage. Furthermore, I felt that it is not right for the invigilator to sleep while invigilating us. ZZZ. Not the first time. Still blame me for talking during mock exam? She was the one sleeping, that gave me the chance to talk. Haha, my family went to the airport yesterday to celebrate my Dad's 48th Birthday =) Hha! It was an extraordinary weekday for me!
    April 11 YawnnnnI'm so tired! Haha, I had visited Tampines 1 for 3 consecutive days. But sadly, the shops are always closed when I happen to go there. Haha, Had C.O practice today. Then tuition, then went for sales. Haha, everything was so cheap! Bought my winter jacket. And 1 high slippers, and one long sleve =) As usual, spent my Saturday with Yvonne at Bugis. Ate Ah Chew Dessert. Then back home! Yawn*** O'levels SPA is on Monday. ZZZZ
   April 10 Good FridayHaha, I spent my day at home, sleeping. Then tuition, haha! I had loads of fun at tuition today. Laughing at others, making the teacher digress. Haha, and breaking the rule - EAT. LOLS. Haha gonna post some new pictures!
   April 09 ThursdayHaha, things are going smoothly =) Haha, 2,4km run today. I'm the first girl in the class, with the time of 14minutes! Haha congratulations!!! Then, I won the 2nd prize for the inter-class Asean costume competition! Thank you Elaine & Fayyadhah! I'm doing the survey for the school now. So lame! Haha, I'm going to Tampines 1 with Serene ^.^ And, going to have Bristish council later! April 07 Tuesday.I'm absolutely restless now. I spent many hours studying Chemistry. I have to start working on my inefficient study techniques!!! I switched on the computer just to charge my IPOD. It is wasting my precious time which coan be spent on my hoemwork. There is always a lot of hoemwork given on Tuesday, I don't understand why! ZZZ... I hope everyone is doign fine, just like me =) I'm getting more and more elated each day after I picked up faith on Buddhism. I seriosuly hope that I will hold on tight to my practice and never let go again. I used to tell myself that " Obstacles are meant to be overcome! ". Yes, I will try my best to fulfill what I'v quoted. I hope that Yvonne can be elated like me! And be strong. Though personal problems are difficult to overcome, but there is always a way out. If you're determined, you can definitely overcome them and be enlighted! April 05 Sunday.I had loads of fun last night with Yvonne. We went to shopping =DDDDD I cannot spend my Saturday without shopping. Yvonne bought a lucky charm for herself, and I bought a pants.! Haha, Then we went to eat Mango Sago at Ah Chew Desert House. It was absolutely tasty. Haha, as we went out at about 8pm, I only reached home 5 minutes before 12am and slept at 3am!!!!! Furthermore, I woke up at 8.45am this morning to go for chanting. Went to eat chanting and bought a blouse which I wanted to buy yesterday!!! Haha, I hope everyday can be that exciting. My bank is left with $30 now. I spend $50 every week. Ma de =.= I have to start saving le!!! My Weekeli puff is 9 years old! I bought it when I was in Primary 1, and now I'm Sec 4!!
   April 04 My weekYawns, a 6-days study week. Haha, I guess I had broken my record. Fail my Maths mock exam, F9 for Chem, Last in class for Amaths. I would not deny that I did not even study. And I hate to study, just wanna sleep and have a peaceful life. I'm going to play soem online games, watch some movie and sleep :) This is the life that I enjoy, free and easy. Sorry, getting bored here =( March 29 A very, very bad day.I was extremely tired this morning, but I pulled myself up for outdoor student activity. I was not happy to be there. I forced a smile to everyone as I did not want to spoil the atmosphere. I was worrying about my homework throughout, and did not have the mood to play. Furthermore, I was absolutely stucked in the nest of hunger. Absolutely. I hate to feel hungry. It makes me even more emo. I was like mad woman eating when lunch was distributed. After that, I went straight home and bought a durian cake from emi. I looked through the homeworks, and sank down immediately. I definitely could not finish them by today. After the long week, I could sense that Term2 is gonna be really bad for me. Just like the past few Term2s I had experienced. Now, I feel so down, so tired. I don't want to do anything other then sleeping. I miss Edward Cullen. Everytime I pause my reading, I could not stop thinking of the perfect scene of him & Bella. I really hope he exists in the world.
So sad, I did not have time to go to IMM and see MARS. And, I'm regreting now. =( I cannot believe that my youner sister have not bathed. PASIR RIS IS LIKE DAMN FREAKING DIRTY. And she perspired so much. So have the cheeks to lie on the bed and sleep. Disguisting, I'm gonna give myself a tight slap for not teaching her the definition of "Clean". She still warned me not to "jiaowei" about her unhygenic habits and insisted that she is clean.
Photo of last Sunday's dinner. Pardon me, super ugly.
 March 27 Sports day.It was a total failure. I lost all my interest in sports. Blames were put on me, I heard them all. Hatred is nutring, I'm not going to forget any. The incident which I was badly inseulted by the c.o chairman and my section leader, I had never forget. I would not take any revenge. Definitely not. However, you have to believe that it is not easy to go against me. Now, if you feel that you are the one and you are extremely angry, it shows that you are guilty of ill-treating me. Though I may smile to you, and act like nothing has happened, but the dismay is still in me. And of those whom I heard you criticizing me, I know you are coming to see how m I feeling. Extremely sad of course. Whatever la, waste me time. I shall not change for anyone, but for myself. I don't see anyone true. Everyone just put on a mask like how I did. I'm not gonna take it down, but hang on to it till I die.
And I think I should apologize to Roslina, I don't know why I feel wrong to her. Really sorry about it. But for the others, I'm not forgeting, neither will I forgive. March 26 Thursday.MUSCULE ACHES AND CRAMPS. I didn't expect myself to be tired to the extent that I felt like vomiting. I have been following closely with my plans and goals. I hope this contiues. I'm not gonna be around for a moment. My phone was spoiled by me, and I do not have the chance to upload any candid photos =( I love Edward, he is so perfect. I wished I could be a character in Twilight. Suddenly, I love to read! My weekend is so f.packed and I have no time to read, shop nor catch a movie! Something I'm happy about - THERE ARE PEOPLE READIGN MY BLOG. 700>hits!
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I'm gonna suffer. No shopping? No reading? No Movie? Hais, no tv still. So many sales going on in Tampines! And.... So many movies to watch. Shopaholic, Detroit Metal city, Marley and me , etc! So many books to read, my 4 Twilight series of book, Marked, Gossip girls, Shopaholic, Marley and me, etcetc. Hais, I haven't got my new sling bag. =( Overall conclusion : Stay focus and stop grudging. The fact that you're having Os this year, just cannot be changed! March 22 Empty.Fei Lun Hai is having a “签唱会" at IMM next Sunday! I WANT GO AND SEE MARS!!! I think I'm mad about Mars these days. I'm badly influenced by the TV. I must at least watch 2 hours everyday. Haiz, I seriously got no idea why such thing had actually happened on me. I used to be an anti-TV. I still have tons of homworks to be completed.... But it seems like I would not finish them by today as I'm going out in 45 minutes time. Can anyone encourage me to study? Chinese O'level is coming. Coming nearer. I'm not taking any actions despite knowing that my Chinese is bad. DIE LE LA. March 21 Lastday.I don't know what the hell I'm thinking. I had been switching my handphone off and watching television for the past 8 days! I really don't understand why. And now, I haven't buy my bag, I haven't do all my homeworks, I haven't pack my bag and iron my uniforms and socks. I have so many things to do tmr? I''m not sure whether I can cope with it tmr. I still have to attend a ceremony and a dinner tmr. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I really gonna be dead. But don't expect me to do them now because I'm watching tv. My favourite show. Hai, I had already watch 8hours of tv just now, but I can't stop myself =( Stress le la! I regret not getting things down early though I really enjoyed/ relaced during the holidays. Whatever! =( March 20 Friday,It's the last day of holiday already! So fast. And, I'm still sick =( I haven't start doing anything homework/revision! Kind of worried. Yesterday was a really packed day. I had fun with Sharon. We watched Mall cop instead of the Metal Detroit city. I was rather disappointed as I expected myself to be 16 and able to watch NC16 movies. Haha, but nvm! Haha, 6 more months to goooooo~ We went to Carrefour to buy some snacks! Haha, cheapo sia! Obviously I rushed to temple for evening prayers after that and had my dinner at Bugis. I shopped around at Bugis Village for awhile, then took train to Wesmond's house for reach out. It lasted for hourssssssssss and I reached home, feeling so dead. And today, I'm still not feeling well because my nose is still runny! I'm not going to school because I don't wanna spread my diseases to others. Sorry, no pictures. Today's schedule is agaun, so packed =( I wanna buy a new slign bag manxzxzx. March 19 I'm a patient! Show some care!Damn it, I really hate to be sick. It's even worse than living. The worst thing is that, I cannot focus because I'm coughing day and night! My computer was sent for repair, and now, it's back ( worst than before! ) Got myself updated of the arrival of my online purchases. ZZZ, so long! But, it's definitely worth waiting!
Actually, I planned to go to Sentosa with my classmates today. but I was too sick to go under the sun =( Furthermore, I'm having running nose! I also couldn't help out in the dry run of this month's student activity. I felt guilty about it. I went to temple for chanting with Yvonne instead, but I was a mute throughout. Haha, then we went to meet Prico at Northpoint for our dinner. It wasn't a dinner, but a supper instead as we wannted to enjoy the after 9pm 30% off at Ishi Mura. The ambience of Ishi Mura was really great. Haha! We also had our "LOW-TEA" at Macdonalds. Haha, I felt so relaxed to be with Prico and Yvonne. They are people that I can share my thoughts with!
Yvonne had a break-down, this is my first time seeing her so sad. I don't want Yvonne to be sad! She used to be the "THE LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE"! CHEER UP,! Hais, I'm still so bad at counselling people. Need to go for some training with Tricia. She used to make me happy when I was feeling low.
Tmr schedule is really packed
I need some air! Gonna suffocate if life goes on like this. I really hope I will recover ASAP ASAP ASAP! I don't wanna feel restless. I wanna buy the sling bag Yvonne had! I wanna buy LG ice-cream! And I wanna go to the Bottle Tree Park with sisters. I wanna cheer Yvonne up =) Hahas, I had set my determination for Term 2! I'm stepping beyond my comfort zone~ *Applauses*
March 13 HOLIDAY!This is my last Term 1 in Eastview. =) Wooo! Which means I don't have to tolerate the smelly toliets and lousy tables any longer than a year. HAHA. There are a lot of homeworks waiting of me. My new Chemistry tuition is really effective. The teacher is so nice. However, the Physics one is like hell. I want to COMPLAIN. Over the holidays, I think I really need to reflect..
MY SISTER IS GRUMBLING NOW. SHE IS IRRITATING ME. I WANT HER TO GO TO BED NOW AND STOP HER NONSENSE. March 12 The Best Day.Unlike yesterday, things went smooth today. Firstly, we were able to go into the indoor sports hall for PE lessons. It is the best part of East View Secondary. The floor was made of rubber with wood printing. It looked like a real wood-tiles. The floor wasn't slippery but just alright for us to sprint. Haha, PE = CAPTAINS' BALL. Our regular game. Then, we had English. Wrote a lousy report as I did not put in much effort. I failed Physics. Again! Somehow.... I accepted the truth. My Science wasn't good since primary school. Right? Haha. Then, we won the first prize for the M.T week's song challenge. Enjoyed the tibits in the prize and etc.... A simple day filled with little happiness? I hope tmr will be as peaceful as today. March 09 MONDAY, LONGDAY.Haha... I find star projects hard since last year. The topics given are rather general. Like "REDUCE WASTE" and "SINGAPORE". Nothing much to talk about =.= LOL, I was doing my Cumulative Frequency worksheet just now. I drew 4 graphs in total! And now, I feel so giddy. My head is "SQUARE" after looking at the never-ending small grids. I slept at 2.30am last night! And I didn't sleep in class and at home today. =O . SO-NOT-ME. Whatever la, I still have to do my Chemistry worksheet and Star project powerpoint. I don't want to live in the BLURBLUR world anymore. I want to know what teacher is teaching. So I die-die must finish my homework everyday. OKOK. Going off to do my prayers.
 WAKEUP...March 08 Good night,Haha, my ears and eyes are being polluted by my younger sister. From the minute she started talking to me, I knew this would happen. I don't want to be influenced!!!! It is difficult for me to purify my mind, and think carefully. Somehow, I think my family has the tradition of gossiping. My grandma, mum, aunts, cousins and sisters, all like to gossip. I think we are the GOSSIP FAMILY. Quite true eh? I like to gossip, but usually I would just keep quiet and say nothing. This is because I don't want to spoil my image! Haha. I didn't focus when I was studying just now. I was studying for the stake of studying. At least I wouldn't feel so guilty this way. I can have a good sleep later. I hope it rains tonight.
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